loading... close

36, diagnosed stage 4 breast w/bone mets, has taken EVERYTHING from me, been fighting, I'm tired, my friends don't call me, and my family is nonexistent . I hurt so bad inside, I wish The Lord would take me,I'm afraid I'll do it myself. PLEASE HELP ME

Thumb avatar default
Asked by

anonymous

Stage 4 Patient over 6 years
 
  • Thumb avatar default
    anonymous
    Survivor since 2006
    Dear God we thank you for allowing Allison to fine this site. On behalf of all the Pink Sisters and Sisters Of Hope we pray that you give her peace, joy and remove all her thoughts of fear. She is your child and I know you will not leave her or fail her during this difficult time in her life. You are in complete control of all our life's and we know that you will answer our prayers for Allison. Lord I love you and I thank you for you have chosen all of us to go through the journey we have had to go through once we were diagnosed with B/C. Psalm 30(5) states that weeping may endure for a night but joy cometh in the morning. These prayers I ask in your name. Amen!! Allison as you read the comments that so many of your sister have posted I truly hope that you can find comfort and know that we are here for you please reach out to us. Do you have an email address if so can you respond so I can communicate with you. Or share your phone number I would also like to be a blessing to you just so you can see that we are serious on this site. Please don't stop praying cause The Lord is nigh on don't stop praying he will here your cries for The Lord has promised and his word is true on don't stop praying he will answer you!!! Stay encouraged Sweetie with Love and Blessings!! Your Sister Of Hope
    over 6 years Flag
    • Kim SWETLIK Profile
      anonymous
      Stage 1 Patient

      AMEN

      over 6 years Flag
    • Thumb avatar default
      匿名
      了解乳腺癌

      Amen

      over 6 years Flag
    • Betti A Profile
      anonymous
      Survivor since 2013

      A big loud AMEN!!!!!!!!!!!

      over 6 years Flag
    • Lynn Rambo Profile
      anonymous
      Patient

      Praying for you, Allison! Hang in there and reach out for help, please! YOU are so worth it {hugs}

      over 6 years Flag
  • Kansas Girl  Profile
    anonymous
    Stage 1 Patient
    We have a great group of women on Facebook -private group called Pink Sisters. I promise you we will collectively hold you on our embrace. Please find and friend me on Facebook and I'll add you -Julie Huber. My picture is the KU Jayhawk. PLEASE respond back. You are not alone.
    over 6 years Comment Flag
  • Marianne R. Profile
    anonymous
    Survivor since 2011
    You are not alone!! Everybody has a story of family, friends, or sposes that have tucked their tale and run. I have a mother that would take two bottles of wine to talk about. You need to fight for your future. You have a future and yes you have a hell of a battle but you can and will win. You are hereI think I'm the 15th post you are not alone in fact it's getting a little crowded in here. Find me on facebook there's a big walker hound is my profile picture. There is a group there and somebody is allways up with insomnia. Big hugs headed your way.
    over 6 years Comment Flag
  • Monique Simmons  Profile
    anonymous
    Patient
    Please keep your faith in The Lord. HE will pull you through this tough time. You are worth the fight even if your family and friends aren't there for you. I will keep you lifted in prayer my pink sister.
    over 6 years Comment Flag
  • anonymous Profile
    anonymous
    Learning About Breast Cancer
    There r no words that I can say to u to make this go away, but I can tell u u thru this journey I have held on to God's unchanging hand. He alone has lifted me high when I was so low. He gave me peace that surpasses all men's knowledge. He has allowed me to feel His peace in my most hardest times. No matter where I have been in my life ...I understand know He is still in control. My prayers go out to u, Hon. I'm only 2 years older then u and I have grown so much. Allow ur self to feel hurt b/c we r human, but dust urself off and know u r not alone. Tell us where u r located and maybe we have a sister that can visit with u and take u out for a moment. God bless u with peace and love.
    over 6 years Comment Flag
  • Thumb avatar default
    anonymous
    Stage 4 Patient
    Thank you ladies, when I saw how much attention this got I was blown away by the outpouring of love and support. I hope to keep you all in my live. We all have such a hard struggle that only WE will ever understand. I'm just really sad, my boyfriend dumped me because I had to have my ovaries removed, then I had to change states and Medicaid, and the transition and the way I've been treated is a disgrace! We didn't ask for this, we didn't do anything wrong to get this! Just because some of us don't have private insurance doesn't mean we deserve to be treated like file numbers with a bracelet with barcodes. I wanted to let you all know that I didn't do anything stupid, thanks to all of you, all I can say is thank you from the bottom of my heart and now I truly feel that I belong to a sisterhood. God Bless all of you and you are in my prayers!
    over 6 years Flag
    • Betti A Profile
      anonymous
      Survivor since 2013

      Allison, you continue to be in my prayers as well. You are one strong woman and things have a way of working out even though you may not see it now. I asked God why I was chosen for this and haven't gotten an answer yet but will some day. Take...

      more

      Allison, you continue to be in my prayers as well. You are one strong woman and things have a way of working out even though you may not see it now. I asked God why I was chosen for this and haven't gotten an answer yet but will some day. Take care of yourself.

      over 6 years Flag
    • K G Profile
      anonymous
      Survivor since 2011

      So great to hear from you, and you sound so strong today. I am very glad and thankful for that. Everyday I pray your pain will ease. It is an unbelieveable bond between us all, and it is so wonderful to have eachother! Hang in there and please...

      more

      So great to hear from you, and you sound so strong today. I am very glad and thankful for that. Everyday I pray your pain will ease. It is an unbelieveable bond between us all, and it is so wonderful to have eachother! Hang in there and please keep in touch!!

      over 6 years Flag
    • Lisa G Profile
      anonymous
      Survivor since 2012

      Hello Allison, I'm so glad to see you connecting with us once again. I was very worried about you and was considering calling your local police to do a wellness check soon. We have your back Allison. I'm so glad to hear that you did no harm to...

      more

      Hello Allison, I'm so glad to see you connecting with us once again. I was very worried about you and was considering calling your local police to do a wellness check soon. We have your back Allison. I'm so glad to hear that you did no harm to yourself. That is the strength of character that defines you. We all have had those feelings, but you were brave enough to say them..Good for you..I'm proud of you for telling your whole truth. You know what to do about your healthcare workers not treating you right. Give em hell and go over the heads.people start acting right once they hear lawyer and newspaper..lol One Love

      over 6 years Flag
    • joan jones Profile
      anonymous
      Stage 0 Patient

      Thanks for giving us an update .
      We all have our days of spiraling down -
      Good thing we are not ALL spiraling down on the same day ~ so there is ALWAYS someone who can lift us up !!!
      And God never sleeps !
      Hope easier days are ahead !

      Keep...

      more

      Thanks for giving us an update .
      We all have our days of spiraling down -
      Good thing we are not ALL spiraling down on the same day ~ so there is ALWAYS someone who can lift us up !!!
      And God never sleeps !
      Hope easier days are ahead !

      Keep us posted - on any day - the good - the bad / and the>> fabulous !!!!!!!!

      over 6 years Flag
  • Lisa Gainey Profile
    anonymous
    Stage 4 Patient
    You are not alone. We are here for you. I am 38, also with stage 4 and bone mets. I am 1 yr into this battle and am doing better every day. Last round of scans showed a huge improvement in my bones and tumor size. We all fight together and for each other just as much as we fight for ourselves. Please hold on and believe that better days are ahead.
    over 6 years Comment Flag
  • Thumb avatar default
    anonymous
    Stage 2B Patient
    Allison, I am so so sorry that you have to go through this. I understand that you feel powerless, tired and hurt - and betrayed. Believe me I have been there! I was left by family too, and no friends that bothered calling. If you are going to church, is there a pastor or priest that can help, at least talk to you? Maybe someone at your Dr's office? Please call one of your friends, someone has to be there, and reach out. I will be praying for you. Much love -If you want to private message me, email me at mjddf2012@yahoo.com
    over 6 years Comment Flag
  • K G Profile
    anonymous
    Survivor since 2011
    Allison-You are in a tough spot no doubt about it. You have fought so hard for two years-----you got another great fight in you yet I know it. Though I don't have stage 4- my family was 17 hrs from me in Iowa. I was diagnosed like you at 33 shortly after you in June 2011. I would love to talk to you via email or on the phone if you ever feel up to it. Email me at kelled77@hotmail.com. You are not alone, there are so many of us here to talk and help in whatever way we can. I am so sorry you are feeling so low, but so many of us care about you and want to see you fight girl!!!!! Please hang in there, and let us encourage you and lift you up.
    over 6 years Flag
    • Thumb avatar default
      anonymous
      Stage 4 Patient

      Thank you, that means a lot to me. It's been a rough 2 + years. I would love to talk with you more.
      allisonsturgill@gmail.com God Bless your heart!

      over 6 years Flag
  • Thumb avatar default
    anonymous
    Survivor since 2006
    Thank You Lord For answering our prayers. I am smiling from ear to ear after seeing Allison posting today. :) Allison please reach out to us we really do love you! Stay encouraged and we will never stop praying for you. Stay encouraged Sweetie! Your Sister Of Hope who is praising God in church on today because he is so worthy of the Praise!!
    over 6 years Comment Flag
  • Thumb avatar default
    anonymous
    Learning About Breast Cancer
    Please don't give up I too am 34 and stage 4 with mets to my bones. I want to live but need women like you to share my treatment information with. My onc said I will not die as this is treatable. After my last scan I had less bone disease and no new lesions so there is hope. Don't lose that hope you are too young
    over 6 years Comment Flag
  • B R Profile
    anonymous
    Survivor since 2012
    Allison, are you on FB??
    over 6 years Comment Flag
  • anonymous Profile
    anonymous
    Patient
    I know the loniness you must feel , we are all here for you and we are all going thru this in different stages. Please know that you are not alone in this. I am so sorry you are going thru this .
    over 6 years Comment Flag
  • Roberta S Profile
    anonymous
    Stage 2B Patient
    We are all here for you! Don't you dare give up! I will pray for you tonight! Hugs!!
    over 6 years Comment Flag
  • Renea Wunderlin Profile
    anonymous
    Stage 1 Patient
    Allison,There are a lot of women on here that do care and want to be there for you.Please look for one of us on face book.Never give up.You can do this.I am praying for you and sending Hugs your way
    over 6 years Comment Flag
  • Cheryl Wornham Profile
    anonymous
    Learning About Breast Cancer
    My prayers are with you
    over 6 years Comment Flag
  • Jk Joyce Profile
    anonymous
    Survivor since 2012
    Allison, I am sending up prayers for you and sending hugs and much love also.
    over 6 years Comment Flag
  • Mary Chase Profile
    anonymous
    Learning About Breast Cancer
    Allison, I read your post last night and my heart breaks for you. You have been so strong for two years! No wonder you are tired! I prayed for you last night and will continue to do so
    over 6 years Comment Flag
  • cindy stephenson Profile
    anonymous
    Learning About Breast Cancer
    You are so strong!! You are a fighter. Your story is very sad but know you are not alone we are here for you. I am not sure if there is a social worker or chaplain where you get your treatment but they may help you. Also see if there is a breast cancer support group in your area if not empower yourself to start one. I have very good friends from the support group- praying for you!!
    over 6 years Comment Flag
  • jan bursky Profile
    anonymous
    Learning About Breast Cancer
    I am so sorry you are having such a hard time. It is so easy to get stuck in what's bad and forget about the good. to help me stay focussed on the good i use gratitude lists..we are all here for you and i am keeping you in my prayers.
    over 6 years Comment Flag
  • Thumb avatar default
    匿名
    了解乳腺癌
    My prayers to you Allison.
    over 6 years Comment Flag
  • Roz Potenza Profile
    anonymous
    Patient
    Dear Allison, Words seem so lame when a sister is hurting as you are. I wish there was more we could do besides offer your verbal comfort but please take the time to read all these posts and know that every one of them is sincere and that all the ladies here are reaching out to you and sending you love in the only way we can - online. It sucks that you don't have a decent support group within your own family but you are not alone. I promise you that there are groups that exist specifically for people like you who feel alone and are scared. You have every right to feel what you are feeling so know that it's normal. You are going through a very difficult time and as hard as it may seem, you need to hang in there and keep trying to get better. You CAN do it and we will be here for you every step of the way. Please go to your local cancer center and let people know how you are feeling. I promise you there are people out there that will help. Sending much love, strength and support. Please stay in touch with us Allison. Roz
    over 6 years Comment Flag
  • Leah Fortune Profile
    anonymous
    Stage 4 Patient
    There is a lot that have mentioned the Facebook to you come on and join us we will help you thru the good and bad many are on our site. This is one of Gods many ways of reaching out to you. You just have to take that little step. I'm not stage 4 but I am 3 c and giving it my all
    over 6 years Comment Flag
  • Jill Dolton Profile
    anonymous
    Learning About Breast Cancer
    Sending Prayers to you Alliaon, were all here for you, don't give up girl, friend one of us on Facebook and we will add you to our private pink sisters page
    over 6 years Comment Flag
  • André Roberts Profile
    anonymous
    Stage 1 Patient
    I'm sorry your feeling this way. We are here for you. Never give up. You must stay positive and make the most out of every day. Prayers to you.
    over 6 years Flag
    • Thumb avatar default
      anonymous
      Stage 4 Patient

      Why are you so hateful, you have questions for me, then ask, but don't you EVER question my struggles. You keep that hateful behavior up Karma will get you.

      over 6 years Flag
    • Lisa Stottlemyer Profile
      anonymous
      Stage 2A Patient

      Do not go there

      over 6 years Flag
    • Thumb avatar default
      anonymous
      Learning About Breast Cancer

      Allison, cancer causes a lot of extra problems. Contact a mental health professional. You need help that only a trained professional can give you. All the anger you have needs to be directed at your cancer. Please get some help so your...

      more

      Allison, cancer causes a lot of extra problems. Contact a mental health professional. You need help that only a trained professional can give you. All the anger you have needs to be directed at your cancer. Please get some help so your energy can be directed toward your cancer, not the world.

      over 6 years Flag
  • sharon s Profile
    anonymous
    Learning About Breast Cancer
    Allison I wish I were in New Orleans. Is there a women's home to connect with? I know you're not saying your homeless but they may offer some other services. Check out all the organizations
    over 6 years Flag
    • Thumb avatar default
      anonymous
      Stage 4 Patient

      I'm in Iowa now with my mom. Still struggling, still alone. I spend alot of days in bed.

      over 6 years Flag
  • Betti A Profile
    anonymous
    Survivor since 2013
    Please reach out to God in this time of need and he will guide you. I'll keep you in my prayers, take care, OK? Betti
    over 6 years Comment Flag
  • Thumb avatar default
    anonymous
    Stage 0 Patient
    God is blessing you with the strength of this site. You were lead here like all of us for a reason. So you are definitely not alone Allison. My prayers are with you young lady...God Bless You
    over 6 years Comment Flag
  • jayme john Profile
    anonymous
    Learning About Breast Cancer
    Dear Alison you sound full of despare. I wish I could find the right words to let you know we are by your side. Please don't give up. We know what a large fight you have and pray you find the strength to continue on fighting. We are happy you came here and shared your feelings. It gave us a chance to let you and everyone else know there are people out there who have a similar experience. This site has warmed my darkest moments, I hope it can do the same for you. Jayme
    over 6 years Comment Flag
  • joan jones Profile
    anonymous
    Stage 0 Patient
    Sometimes it is not family or friends but complete strangers - you will never / see ...that are there for you and understand Hold your head up high and know you are worthy of life and comfort . I care and reaching out to you - now And I may not know you but I care and~ There are "Sisters" here who care ... You -Are-not alone --- You did the right thing / you reached out !
    over 6 years Comment Flag
  • Kim SWETLIK Profile
    anonymous
    Stage 1 Patient
    Honey ill be your friend. I know how hard it is. I just had surgery June 20... Stage 1. Removed right breast. Got it all. But I know some family and some friends gave up on me. So u Need to talk ill listen. ....praying for you.....kim Kimswet@gmail.com
    over 6 years Comment Flag
  • sharon s Profile
    anonymous
    Learning About Breast Cancer
    Watch the gerson miracle for inspiration. It tracks nine patients and a food remedy.
    over 6 years Flag
    • Thumb avatar default
      anonymous
      Stage 4 Patient

      I've been to the Gerson Workshop in San Diego. It was very educational, a lot in 3 days, you definitely need help, it's a very hard, strict regimen, I have the DVD for attending, but thank you, it's nice to know there are others out there that are...

      more

      I've been to the Gerson Workshop in San Diego. It was very educational, a lot in 3 days, you definitely need help, it's a very hard, strict regimen, I have the DVD for attending, but thank you, it's nice to know there are others out there that are aware of it. God Bless!

      over 6 years Flag
  • B R Profile
    anonymous
    Survivor since 2012
    I am so sadden to have read your story. You have been through so very much at such a young age. We are all here for you. God bless and continue to fight.
    over 6 years Comment Flag
  • lori hansen Profile
    anonymous
    Learning About Breast Cancer
    Allison My heart is heavy as I read your post. As everyone has said u will find strangers that we all may be but were here for u! We're all bonded at heart sweetheart. I don't want you to feel alone. Please know I'm here for you. I'm 40 and was just diagnosed two months ago. I understand and I'm here for you!!! Whatever you need All my love and prayers Lori
    over 6 years Comment Flag
  • Thumb avatar default
    anonymous
    Learning About Breast Cancer
    Allison,
    over 6 years Comment Flag
  • belinda smith Profile
    anonymous
    Survivor since 2013
    Stay strong.......fight and don't let cancer beat you.
    over 6 years Comment Flag
  • Astrid Cruz Profile
    anonymous
    Learning About Breast Cancer
    Prayers to you Allison, we all have a purpose in life and you are a very strong woman, an inspiration to others and we're here for you. God bless yoy and don't give up!
    over 6 years Comment Flag
  • Lisa G Profile
    anonymous
    Survivor since 2012
    Honey I'm sooo sorry to hear your heart is so heavy. We have all faced the same anger, frustration and pain that you have. You are a very difficult place right now with your journey. You have to know that you are not alone in this. We can't change your diagnosis or treatment, but we can be here for you mentally and emotionally. Here's my email: danc4mysol@hotmail.com and contact your local American Cancer Society, they have a lot of programs in place to help here's there number 1-800-227-2345. Cancer has taken a lot from all of us, but YOU CAN'T LET IT TAKE AWAY YOUR TIME. Please continue to reach out for help..I'll be praying for you..
    over 6 years Comment Flag
  • Dawn Goldberg Profile
    anonymous
    Survivor since 2013
    Join us Pink Sisters on Facebook. Let us know where u r from..I'm sure someone lives nearby and can help U through this. You r not alone and we will help u become a survivor!
    over 6 years Comment Flag
  • Mandana K. Profile
    anonymous
    Learning About Breast Cancer
    Hello r u ok?
    over 5 years Comment Flag
  • Glo Rosario Profile
    anonymous
    Learning About Breast Cancer
    My prays go out to you. Yes watch the beautiful truth . God bless you today and always...
    over 6 years Comment Flag

Educational Video

Personal Story

Related Topics

Looking for another topic?
Use the search box in the top right.

Footer 3

Breast cancer affects one out of every eight women in their lifetime.

spread the word